Thursday, September 24, 2009

A Year Ago

So a year ago was one of the hardest weeks of my life. We left Ohio for the beautiful state of North Carolina. It is also the week that our sweet Logan would have been born. I mourned the loss of being close to my in-laws and my friends and I mourned the loss of a baby/pregnancy.

I have come a long way since then. Mentally I am feeling so much better. When I was seeing a therapist, she helped me through the grieving process much better than I could have done on my own. I wasn't sure I was going to make it through the spring without being committed. I was terribly down. But now life has a purpose again.

Physically I am doing okay too. The pregnancy that I am experiencing right now is going well. I have some issues that I think about from time to time, but I don't dwell on those. I will take it in stride. I will trust our Heavenly Father to not give me more than I can handle and I will run and not be weary.

Spiritually I'm still just at the basics. Faith was really struggling there for a while, but through my own prayers and the prayers of others, I have felt the Spirit and know that I am still in the watchful eye of our Heavenly Father. And I will keep on keeping on.

I am grateful for my family. I'm grateful for my kids who make me laugh and/or cry every day. :) I am thankful for my friends, new and old, who have helped me whether they know it or not.

I will continue to remember this week in September for a while. But I will also look forward to making other memories and especially to this new little one, who will be a little slice of heaven.

9 comments:

emlouisa said...

Love you Becky. I"m glad you are doing better.

Amber said...

What a great reflection you are able to have. I am happy that you are doing well!!

Ruth Vest said...

that was so sweet. i can't believe it's been a year since you moved. crazy how time flies. i'm so happy for how far you've come. i'm sure it was a lot of hard work and tough times, but you're stronger for it. good for you for being able to come out of something like that.

taffi said...

I am loving this post. And you. :hugs:

dskddoby said...

I'm so glad you're able to 'keep on keeping on'. If you're spiritually at the basics, I can't wait to see you strong in faith again. You are someone that I enjoy being around because I can feel the spirit when I'm around you. I'm sorry you had to move away from family but have been truly blessed to have you as a friend! Hugs

beckylou said...

Thanks Shaynee. After moving, I wasn't sure I was going to be able to make good friends like I have in Ohio, but you are truly a good friend. :)

shimber said...

Ah, I love you. I'm so glad my brother has you to spend eternity with! :)

A said...

I am so glad you are doing better. <3

Shanel said...

This was a great post. We love you so much and are so lucky to have you in our family. You are a great sister :)