Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Yet another

Poor me, woe is me post. Are you sick of these yet?

Why can't I just accept myself for who I am? Why am I always wishing to be thinner, happier, a better dresser, more friendly, a better housekeeper, a good decorator, etc, etc, etc!?

My life is good. Bon works hard to provide for us and give us everything we could ever need and it seems that all I ever do is wish myself and my surroundings different. Could that stem from the fact I was never good enough as a teen? Has that really damaged me, even after all this time?

I really miss my friends right now. I'll be getting together with moms from the ward 3-4 times this week and it just brings up my insecurities all over again. Trying to fit in or feeling like I need to fit in is hard.

Oh well. Tomorrow is a new day.

11 comments:

Kendra said...

Tomorrow is a new day...so try to look at it in a positive way. This too shall pass. You are a wonderful person and those ladies should be so lucky to have you as their friend. And as far as the first paragraph goes...you're already all those things. Chin up Buttercup!

Ruth Vest said...

here's my advice... LOVE YOURSELF. screw those moms you hang with, screw the skinny girl at the store, screw the woman who does it all and has everything-they all have issues too!!! you gotta learn to love you for who you are TODAY-if you don't learn to do that... you'll never be happy. hope that wasn't too rough but you should be happy. you have a wonderful life, are a wonderful person, a hot babe with an even hotter love life (i'm assuming), things are good-enjoy it!!!

liz said...

The crazy thing is we moms spend all of our time wishing to be like someone else (I've done this too) when someone else is spending their time wishing they were like us. I say make a list of what you want to change then work on them one by one. I love changing myself, my hair (this should come as no surprise) and style. I love trying new hobbies and activities. The hard part is making the right changes and making them for the right reason. I say make a change! I love you the way you are - you are a wonderful, beautiful, talented person - but change can be fun!

Amy said...

((hugs)) I caught myself wondering, "I wonder if I'm too dorky and that's why X never emails me back when I email her" Then I had to stop and say, "look she's probably very busy and she'll get around to it" I guess I'm more addicted to email than others LOL

Jarvis Girls said...

You sound exactly like me! I think that the majority of us moms feel that way - always comparing ourselves to others. You are way skinnier than me, have a cute haircut, wear stylin' clothes, and always have something witty to say. Then there is me in my T-shirt, ponytail, fat butt, and tongue all twisted trying to make a coherent sentence.

taffi said...

I love you - isn't that enough? :P

Seriously, though, I'm sorry you're having a hard time... wish I were there & then we could have each other's back when we met new chickas. :hugs:

PS - thank you for the snail mail love! :biggrin:

Heidi said...

You sound very human to me. That's always in my mind. Am I good enough? Would things be better if I was a certain way or if things were different. You have to find something that makes you happy. Even if it's for 5 minutes a day, you need to find ...something!!! Come chat or call or IM me anytime. You're a wonderful friend and a great woman and I hope that you learn to know that.

ditndetes said...

I just wanted you to know that I'm missing you and I'm thinking of you. (((hugs)))

Lisa Curtis said...

Half the time I go home from somewhere kicking myself for being so stupid! We all deal with insecurities. I think it's just one more thing in life we have to deal with. *HUGS!*

AimeeTheSuperMom said...

Sometimes it's just too easy to forget the divine heritage we hold. I can relate all too well these days.

Come back to the MOFia when you can. We all love and miss you. I may be calling you tomorrow. Just because.

FIreball said...

Hope you've had a better day since you written that post. I know how you feel. I like Ruth's advice... but I committed to only screw my husband... and since he's not around... I just have to deal with it. ROFL. ;) Hang in there girl. Moving is tough.